As Baby Girl and I rode home on the train this morning -- after a long, emotional weekend, I was thinking about what I was going to take away from all of it. There were so many wonderful memories and feelings expressed and so much I wanted to remember -- so much I wanted to share. I thought about how I would write it and what my "resolutions" would be in the hopes of doing right by my uncle. But whhhhew. Over thinking it got it all jumbled in my head... and then of course there's my fear of resolutions... that if I fail to continue whatever it was I resolved to do, then I feel like even a bigger loser than before I made the resolution and that just sucks.
So I decided to take one sentiment from the memorial service (that let me tell you had EIGHT priests** presiding over so you know this guy was one-on-one with God) and live it out today, try it on for size, and not make anymore promises than just that. So here's the one I chose, and here's what happened:
"Each day acknowledge your blessings and thank God for each one."
I'll be honest, I wasn't walking around the house looking for blessings to be thankful for... it didn't happen like that. Instead it started with me moaning in my head about all the clothes I had to put away after our trip. I was scrinching my nose thinking of where to get more hangars and "geez how long would it take for me to put all of BG's clothes away," and "ooooh brother look at all this laundry"... when all the sudden I believe Uncle Joe threw a hangar at my head and I realized that all these clothes -- they are my blessing. I stopped, thanked God for amazing wardrobe I have, for how blessed I am to have beautiful clothes for my Baby Girl, for a working washer and dryer, and finding the most awesome new fabric softener that makes me smile every time I smell it. All of the sudden putting the clothes away felt like a privilege -- and get this, there are NO clothes left to put away! I rock... I rock!
My next task is "getting" to mow the lawn. I'll be thanking God for the energy and willing body to mow and most of all for the incredible space BG has to play this summer.
I can't say I'm a fully changed woman though... cause I have a feeling when I see all those dandelions in the yard that popped up RIGHT after I sprayed last week thanks to an out of the blue thunderstorm, I'm gonna struggle with the blessings.
On the other hand, when Baby Girl gets a hold of the ones that have all the puff seeds and gets to blow them through the yard -- she'll be counting her blessings, and I'll be counting my curse words.
Thank you Uncle Joe for all the blessings you've given me as my Godfather, Uncle, and friend over the past 35 years. I will miss you every single day.
**My Aunt Sharon will correct me that it was actually 7 priests and one deacon. She knows the difference because she goes to church every day... another one of God's BFFs.Let's just say, there was a lot of God power up there yesterday!